Is this insecurity normal? I’m showing myself in lingerie for the first time.

I FINALLY did it and showed myself in my underwear on camera. I bought some really hot underwear for my ex back then, which he really didn’t appreciate and even insulted me. I wonder what he’ll say about me putting on my red lingerie for YOU? The idea of other men watching me undress is just so hot. It was a really great feeling to have overcome my nerves and actually dared to do it. I hope you all enjoy my video, and I would be very happy to receive any suggestions :))